Monday, July 29, 2013

35. the musician

you were the one,
you were the one that said,
     why can't you stay the night?
and I am the one,
I am the one that said
     I just - I just can't
and you were the one,
you were the one that said
    do you have someone waiting up for you, is that it?
and I was the one that decided it really shouldn't happen again
and I was the one that drove home at 5 in the morning
being careful not to wake my dog as I slipped into bed
being careful not to think about you too much
as I slipped into sleep

and it was good, it is good
I've changed your name in my phone book to
Don't Call Ryan
although I suppose I could have deleted you, but - 
but I've stopped googling you,
stopped listening to your music, too,
three albums
with your crooning voice
mumbling words to all your former lovers,
who you tried to get to stay the night,
stopped stopped breathing
whenever someone mentions your name
and seeing you around town
and how goddamned cool and 
nice and beautiful you are,
stopped trying to get my friends 
to go to your shows with me.

and you were the one,
you were the one that said
      but aren't you in love with someone else?
and I am the one,
I am the one that said
      yes and thank you and it was good to meet you
and you were the one
you were the one that said
      when you see me around town, remember
      i'm your friend, i'm one of the good ones
which I suppose is a nice thing to say
to someone you were just trying to fuck

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